Review: “Love Me Whole” by Nicky James

TITLE: Love Me Whole
AUTHOR: Nicky James
SERIES: –
PUBLISHER: Self
COVER ARTIST: Nicky James
GENRE: Contemporary Romance; Disability
E-BOOK: Yes
PAPERBACK: Yes
LENGTH: 329 pages
RELEASE DATE: Jan 13, 2018
PRICE: $4.12 e-book / $12.99 -paperback

BLURB:

Twenty-eight-year-old Oryn Patterson isn’t like other people. Being an extremely shy, social introvert is only part of the problem. Oryn has dissociative identity disorder. He may look like a normal man on the outside, but spend five minutes with him, and his daily struggles begin to show.
Oryn shares his life and headspace with five distinctively different alters. Reed, a protective, very straight jock. Cohen, a flamboyantly gay nineteen-year-old who is a social butterfly. Cove, a self-destructive terror, whose past haunts him. Theo, an asexual man of little emotion, whose focus is on maintaining order. And Rain, a five-year-old child whose only concern is Batman.
Vaughn Sinclair is stuck in a rut. When his job doesn’t offer the same thrill it once did, he decides it’s time to mix-up his stagnant, boring routine. Little does he know, the man he meets during an impromptu decision to return to college is anything but ordinary.
Vaughn’s heart defies logic, and he finds himself falling in love with this strange new man. But how can you love someone who isn’t always themself? It may not be easy, but Vaughn is determined to try.


Oryn is a 28 year-old young man who suffers from DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder). He has 5 alters: Reed, a very straight, very protective, weightlifter man, Cohen a young 19 year-old flamboyant hyper social man, Theo, an asexual caretaker, Cove a young man tortured, suicidal and depressive and Rain, a 5 year-old child, fan of Batman and animals. Oryn tries to have a structured life between all the chaos.

Vaughn is a 35 year-old man. He’s an accountant who started to get bored with his life. He decides to take a few classes in Marketing, and that’s how he meets Oryn and his life changes for good.How can you get to know someone when you don’t know who you’re dating?

This book is awesome, beautiful and unique.

Oryn and Vaughn have a strong, emotional and beautiful journey together.I love them, and I ultimately fell for them…. All of them.

Vaughn is amazing, he really wants to get to know Oryn, and tries everything at first to understand what DID is. Then he tries to get to know each alter and to bond with them individually. It was absolutely beautiful and sometimes funny to see how one by one, Vaughn wins their heart. I wanted to comfort him when he was at a lose with Oryn’s condition, and I wanted to kiss him (and more) when he tried to help, understand and love an alter and Oryn.

Oryn is brave, strong, beautiful and tortured. He wants to be normal, he wants to have control in his life and not let his alters mess with him, and he wants to be able to love Vaughn completely. But because of the severe trauma he suffered in his childhood, he can’t. Not like us, so he has a system with his alters and he has to work with them all in order to be functional and in charge most of the time. I love Oryn, he broke my heart many times, he made me cry many times, and he never failed to put a smile on my lips. But not only Oryn, but also his alters, all of them, I completely melted for them.

This book is completely unique by the subject itself, then the plot and the numbers of main characters. Because, we don’t have 2 MCs, nope, we have 7 MCs, 7 unique entities, 7 unique characters, tempers, and issues. I fell in love 7 times for each of them, individually, but also as a whole.

It was my first book by Nicky James, I’ve never read her before, and I don’t know what took me so long to do that. I loved her writing, fluid, dynamic, and the descriptions were good—not too long or too short. I’m also impressed by the amount of research that she must have put into this book. Even if I’m not a psychiatrist, I can see that what she explains with Oryn’s condition isn’t just romanced, how a “system” needs to be created for people with DID or how the co-consciousness helps. It seems entirely true (I was curious after finishing the book) and I can only admire that not only the author choose a difficult subject, but she treats it with respect (and I respect her more for that). I can tell that this book entered my top-3-list 2018.

I highly recommend this beautiful, poetic and incredible love story. You will love every word, the feelings, and the emotion that it will give you.

It’s 5 Amazing OptimuMMs for me… because I love them whole.

***I would like to thank the author for the privilege and opportunity of reading this ARC. My review is an honest opinion of the book ***

Review edited by : Laura McNellis